Ever wonder whats beyond that rainbow ?

Wednesday, December 02, 2009 Wednesday, December 02, 2009

LTC was really fun!
I was really ENTHU for the first time
REALLY
didn’t expect myself to speak up so much
didn’t expect myself to be super hyper
for once, I wanted to prove to the rest that GENERAL SECRETARY isn’t just a post but it’s a leadership post. And I did it.
it wasn’t my own effort but everyone’s

DAY 1
main highlights:
land expedition was really fun
went to various parts of Singapore
kept on encouraging each other even though I was really exhausted

games were fun too
for example, the game granger gave us
its like we had to stand behind one another
and hold our hands
we had to untie our hands without lifting our feet
though I was like crawling the most
I really had a lot of fun =XX
and I guess the guys suffered the most
*winks*

Dancing waltz was fun too
danced with Joel (LOL! totally NO telepathy)
and facils like shao jie and ken han
thanks shao jie for guiding me through
it made me feel like a good dancer
and I learnt a lot

cheering was fun too =DD
thanks derrick and elaine for leading us
as the Yule ball house IC
I really feel very proud of you guys
you guys managed to learnt it so quickly

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day 2
main highlights:

high elements!
I was really nervous and scared
because I was afraid of heights
but I still pushed myself to the limits
I volunteered myself to go up the vertical pole though I was really scared
I think flitwick for your constant encouragement
and shao jie and pamela (my facils) for encouraging me through the rock wall
thank you all.

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day 3

main highlights
kayaking and rafting

griffinclaw rocks!
we managed to push ourselves to the limits
managed to kayak through 4kms (not easy)
but congrats
we really did our best

the facils "cursed me" in the sense that I could talk nor paddle and to the point that my kayak was cursed not to move by its own
but I didn’t give up
thank you for pushing me to the limits
I believe that even then, I could do something
and you guys pushed me to take more initiative

Yule ball was really cool
lol
ravenclaw (my house) won the BEST cheering award
and I was really proud of you all
LOL. We had a lot of fun dancing in front
and I guess I did something different
the facils were standing in a corner
and I thought we should invite them to dance waltz with us
so I asked shao jie
LOL!

dancing with shao jie was cool too
though he always bullies me and stuff
but I learnt a lot from him

in conclusion, I would like to thank my facils, shao jie and pamela for pushing me
especially shao jie cause I talked to him since June
this paragraph is specially dedicated to you

TAY SHAO JIE, thanks for motivating me throughout. Even though you keep suaning me on facebook, msn and even when we sms-ed you really showed a different personality of yourself. We stopped talking after LTC was postponed. I am really glad to have you as my facilitator. You pushed me to greater limits. I didn’t expect myself to have the confidence to take initiative or to constantly encourage each other and feel the sense of urgency. Even though you scold us at times, you made us think and reflect. During the rock wall, you guided me step by step. Thank you for everything. I really learnt a lot from you.

I was awarded the seeker in my group
seeker is a title given to the most outstanding leader in each group
and it was my privileged
and it was my chance to show the rest that I had to leadership skills in me
thank you flitwick for giving me the opportunity to do so

Dear Lord
thanks for guiding me through. Thanks for not forsaking me this time. Thanks for being there when I needed you. Please help me get well soon.
AMEN!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 Tuesday, November 24, 2009

read "my sister's keeper" within a week
and it was really touching
she tried so hard to fight for herself
yet in the end, she saved her sister and died of a car accident
i guesse the ending of the story is how the author likes it to be
and i guesse we wished it was otherwise

but just like our own story
our own life
ONLY WE are able to control that
ONLY we CAN change what we want
With that, i hope you do appreciate everyone around you
You never know what might happen

LTC meeting was fun!
i so LOVE ravenclaw.
SO SO LOVE us =))

Glad to be the yule ball IC
thanks derrick for helping out
I LOVE FLITWICK! 4 days more to LTC =DD

Dear Lord
please be there for me. Heal my back before LTC so that I can participate in all activities. Dont give out on me Lord.
AMEN!

Sunday, November 22, 2009 Sunday, November 22, 2009

all guys are the same
i just havent met the perfect one
once you jio-ed her, you just push her aside
isnt it?
just a random comment

Thursday, November 19, 2009 Thursday, November 19, 2009

thanks people
i am feeling much better =DD

special thanks to ______ for being there for me
thanks for listening to me
and calling me in the morning to ensure that i am safe
i am ok already
thanks to all of my friends who were worried

I went out with my closest cousin yesterday =DD
we were shopping in bugis (for a short while)
yea. a bit wrong cause he is a guy and i am a girl
and we look like a couple when we were out
we wanted to buy new urban male slippers
but his FOOT size is too big =P

and i went out with my class girls to bugis today =))
roslyn couldnt make it =((
but it was fun

LTC is coming
kind of excited for it
arent you? =P

Dear Lord
please continue to bless me in everything I do. Dont neglect me and hear my prayer. Let me concentrate in the lessons such that I am able to do work.
AMEN!

Monday, November 16, 2009 Monday, November 16, 2009

I just cant take it anymore
why?

i look around trying to find someone to talk to but i cant
i look at my phone trying to message you but i cant
thinking of it just makes me sad

i wonder if i can trust you with stuff anymore
wonder if i can trust anyone in the school
just anyone
anyone who will listen and wont laugh at me
anyone who is understanding
just anyone who doesnt have an intention
or will just be my genuine friend
but
yes, fun joy laughter
but when i am lost
when i want to find a shoulder to cry on
who should I approach?

just today
i was lost
didnt know what I should do

should I call my aunt?
how she used to tell me
what matters is that you are safe and sound
she said stuff like it "doesnt matter how much you get
I know you put in the effort"
or how xiaogu will say
"its only the beginning"
or how daddy will say
"i am already so proud of your achievements"
or how ah ma will say, "just relax, God is with you"
or event Miss Tian who will say
"its J1, once you pass it, you can make it to J2"
all those people who believed in me
except YOU

YOU will say stuff like
WHAT?! below average?!
or WHY didnt you study hard enough?
how much that person scored?
why did you get less than him/her?
but DOES IT REALLY MATTER?

I miss secondary school
I miss those times I used to sit beside Linda and will rant about stuff
call Geok Leng and gossip
find Shawn and talk
go back home with good results and that daddy will smile and say "well done"
or when I used to smile everything I finish an exam

just when I wished i could talk to someone
YOU left me
I woke up with tears in my eyes
and dreamt that I called you and you comfort me
and wished you were beside me
but YOU LEFT

I dont know
dont know if this is the best route
I want to go Australia
NOW
want to study things i love

Mr Kwek said "do what you like"
the questions is " IS THIS WHAT I LIKE?"
i know the answer
I just avoided it

READ AND FORGET WHAT YOU READ
DONT ASK ME ANYTHING IF YOU WISH TO
i will talk to you if I trust you
but it seems like I have no one to turn to now
geok leng is busy with Os/ ITE stuff
linda is busy performing
Shawn... busy choosing is clothes for prom. dont want to spoil his mood
Miss Tian already has her problems
Bady left
and I dont know who else
I dont know who will listen and be there for me
who wont in turn make fun for me
I really dont know.

let me be

Dear Lord
please guide me at a time like this. Hear my prayer and be there for me. Listen to me Lord. I just want to move on with life. I just want to be the same old girl. I just want to be ME. let me be happy again.
AMEN

Saturday, November 14, 2009 Saturday, November 14, 2009

yesterday was quite fun
did usual stuff that you will do in chalet
didnt sleep much so a bit tired =((
didnt take photos
cause i look so ugly in specs
(too lazy to wear contacts)

i borrowed a book "my sisters keeper"
i know its kinda late to read it cause the movie is out already
but it does look interesting
hahaha

I WANT MORE MARSHMALLOWS =PP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEE CHOON LOCK! wahahaha. YOU ARE OLD. 19 years old already! 1 more year to 20 =P. ENJOY ARMY!

Dear Lord
please continue to bless me. Dont neglect me and listen to my prayer. Let me walk closer to you.
amen!

Thursday, November 12, 2009 Thursday, November 12, 2009

Bro's birthday today =DD
had dinner at fish and co

I was SUPPOSED to be out today
and i was glad I was late
I was supposed to meet council camp group 3 members at 4.30pm
at IKEA alexandra
and I received a call from Jia Nan at 4.08pm
saying that there is a change in venue
and TIME
and I couldnt make it cause I had to celebrate Josh birthday

so I WAS ALONE at home
doing boring stuff =((

addicted to marsh mallows =(

Dear Lord
please continue to bless me. thank you for being there when i needed you. thank you for everything you have done
amen